All right, I know it’s been a long, long time since my last post. I find I need this blog a lot less than I once did, when the grief of deconversion was a lot more immediate. This video amused me enough that I wanted to post it, though, so here I am.
Edit: And a short while later, I catch another video that I’d like to post with the first. Enjoy!
I wandered into de-Conversion today after a very long time and there you were! So I clicked on your blog and find out that you barely post here (but had just recently).
Yeah, none of that made sense did it? Heh.
Anywhoo … I’m glad I “found” you again and am hoping you post more often, even if it’s just to share the silly video. Sometimes those are the best posts.
Kay
Great vids! =) I also don’t blog or post much about this stuff anymore…. but, it’s good to have and come back to once in a while.
Hey, Quester:
Thought about you the other night. Over the last 18 months or so, I’ve had seasons where I totally questioned God’s presence, or felt that it was completely void. Times where when I prayed, I first asked, “If You are there…” Or I just didn’t pray because I was convinced He wasn’t there.
Mixed in with these times were other times of conviction and of God apparently doing some work on me.
One good outcome of this time of doubting (first in 35 years of being a Christian) is that I am no longer so sure about everything. I think that makes me a more real and approachable person.
For some reason, I find myself not moving away from Christianity, but hanging on for dear life. Asking God to keep me despite my feelings and to restore that sense of His presence. It’s a weird place to be, but I don’t know where else to go.
Mostly, it’s the Cross that keeps me from punting… and the fact that my whole life as been anchored on this faith in Jesus that, in retrospect, has had an amazing (and sometimes miraculous, so it appears) impact on my life.
Take care, Longing